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Wednesday, April 30, 2008

Resolution.

Starting today, I will be quiet. I will shut up.

I'll probably write what I think but then you won't hear me say anything.

-Lo-



Counselor.

Ever since I could remember, I was the type of girl who gets in the middle of fights to sort things out. I remember helping alot of my friends and ended up being hated by their enemies. And since kids have no guts to stand up for themselves (they hear rumors about hating one person then they hate him/her to be with the 'in' crowd), I usually ended up being the most hated person in class. Because I was "trying to fix things".

I gave that up after my first year in highschool. It was a really traumatic event. Went all the way up to the principal. In the end, they said sorry and we sang Christian songs and pretended that they like me.

College came and I was at it again. I thought I was being smart this time. I was trying to stop making the same mistakes I did when I was in grade school and highschoo. But life is a big circle of fun and games. What happenend before, happenend again. Only this time, I refuse to be bully-ed.

Today, I played being Ms. Counselor again. Not to my friends but to my family. I'm starting to think I should ask for a commission or something. Get paid for helping others.

Nah.

Hopefully, I stop obsessing in trying to fix things. I can be too perfectionist sometimes. I should just let go. Not everything need's fixing.


-Lo-



Monday, April 28, 2008

Realizations.

After climbing Mt. Daguldol, I came to realize...

1. I really love mountain climbing. Even if we have to descend while it was dark and raining, I still enjoyed it. (Slippery mud. tsk.)

2. I too dependent on Lawrence. I'm mountain climbing. It was my thing. I did it before and I was totally independent. But with Lawrence around, all I did was nag. tsk. I really have to work on being independent with Lawrence. I got so used to him taking care of me that I don't know how to take care of myself when he's around.

3. I love the beach. I love the rain. I love water.

4. I love photography. It was a wrong move when I didn't use my Nikon D40. I thought it was going to be a disadvantage since it was heavy. But seeing ate Kitci take pictures, ah... tsk. I didn't even want to borrow her camera. I was too shy. Oh well.

5. I love my friends. Monica and Claire were with me on the climb. I love love love spending time with them. I hope more of my friends can come to open climbs with me. :P

6. I am not sweet. I can't be sweet like Lawrence. I don't like public displays of affection. I don't even want hugs from him when people are around.

7. I'm too paranoid about what others think. I should just clear my mind and stop thinking about what they think.

8. Next climb: Mt. Pinatubo. :)

-Lo-



Friday, April 25, 2008

Handwriting.

Welcome Lorey De Guzman, here is your handwriting analysis.

Lorey is moderately outgoing. Her emotions are stirred by sympathy and heart rendering stories. In fact, she can be kind, friendly, affectionate and considerate of others. She has the ability to put herself into the other person's shoes.

Lorey will be somewhat moody, with highs and lows. Sometimes she will be happy, the next day she might be sad. She has the unique ability to get along equally well with what psychology calls introverts and extroverts. This is because she is in between. Psychology calls Lorey an ambivert. She understands the needs of both types. Although they get along, she will not tolerate anyone that is too "far out." She doesn't sway too far one way or the other.

When convincing her to buy a product or an idea, a heart rendering story could mean a great deal to her. She puts herself in the same situation as the person in the story, yet she will not buy anything that seems overly impractical or illogical. Lorey is an expressive person. She outwardly shows her emotions. She may even show traces of tears when hearing a sad story.

Lorey is a "middle-of-the-roader," politically as well as logically. She weighs both sides of an issue, sits on the fence, and then will decide when she finally has to. She basically doesn't relate to any far out ideas and usually won't go to the extreme on any issue.

People that write their letters in an average height and average size are moderate in their ability to interact socially. According to the data input, Lorey doesn't write too large or too small, indicating a balanced ability to be social and interact with others.

Lorey will demand respect and will expect others to treat her with honor and dignity. Lorey believes in her ideas and will expect other people to also respect them. She has a lot of pride.

Lorey is secretive. She has secrets which she does not wish to share with others. She intentionally conceals things about herself. She has a private side that she intends to keep that way, especially concerning certain events in her past.

Lorey has a desire for attention. People around Lorey will notice this need. She may fulfill this need by a variety of ways depending on her own character.

Diplomacy is one of Lorey's best attributes. She has the ability to say what others want to hear. She can have tact with others. She has the ability to state things in such a way as to not offend someone else. Lorey can disagree without being disagreeable.

In reference to Lorey's mental abilities, she has a very investigating and creating mind. She investigates projects rapidly because she is curious about many things. She gets involved in many projects that seem good at the beginning, but she soon must slow down and look at all the angles. She probably gets too many things going at once. When Lorey slows down, then she becomes more creative than before. Since it takes time to be creative, she must slow down to do it. She then decides what projects she has time to finish. Thus she finishes at a slower pace than when she started the project.

She has the best of two kinds of minds. One is the quick investigating mind. The other is the creative mind. Her mind thinks quick and rapidly in the investigative mode. She can learn quicker, investigate more, and think faster. Lorey can then switch into her low gear. When she is in the slower mode, she can be creative, remember longer and stack facts in a logical manner. She is more logical this way and can climb mental mountains with a much better grip.

Lorey is a practical person whose goals are planned, practical, and down to earth. This is typical of people with normal healthy self-esteem. She needs to visualize the end of a project before she starts. she finds joy in anticipation and planning. Notice that I said she plans everything she is going to do, that doesn't necessarily mean things go as planned. Lorey basically feels good about herself. She has a positive self-esteem which contributes to her success. She feels she has the ability to achieve anything she sets her mind to. However, she sets her goals using practicality-- not too "out of reach". She has enough self-confidence to leave a bad situation, yet, she will not take great risks, as they relate to her goals. A good esteem is one key to a happy life. Although there is room for improvement in the confidence catagery, her self-perception is better than average.

Lorey has a healthy imagination and displays a fair amount of trust. She lets new people into her circle of friends. She uses her imagination to understand new ideas, things, and people.

Lorey exaggerates about everything that has a physical nature. Although she may not intend to deceive or mislead, she blows things way out of proportion because that is the way she views them. She will be a good story teller. This exaggeration relates to all areas of her material world. Lorey allows many people into her life because she is accepting and trusting. She is sometimes called gullible by her friends. That only really means that she trusts too many people. Lorey has a vivid imagination.

For a graphologist, the spacing on the page reflects the writer's attitude toward their own world and relationship to things in his or her own space. If the inputted data was correct Lorey has no white space or margins on a typical sheet of paper. Lorey fills up every last inch on the top, right, left, and bottom. Hmmm. If this is true, then Lorey has a very aggressive personality toward others and quite frankly lacks a bit of respect for the space and property of other people. I would be surprised if Lorey just comes into someone's home and helps herself to a drink in the refrigerator. This can be both an obnoxious personality trait and it can be assertive and effective in getting what you want. There isn't much fear of getting in trouble here, Lorey finds plenty of reasons to break the rules and get in trouble. (Okay, perhaps when she was younger, not anymore?) Basically, people with no margins are a handful.


*pretty accurate.

-Lo-



Wednesday, April 23, 2008

I wish I listened to my yaya

When I was a kid, my yaya would always make me take after-lunch naps. She says that I should sleep so that I could grow.

Mara Clara was usually on tv at that time of the day. I also had ADHD, so I couldn't really sleep. So usually I just pretend to sleep and then when my yaya is out of the room, I pretend to wake up.

I remember my mom telling me that in St. Paul, while my classmates where enjoying their nap time, I was lying on the floor just like everyone else but my eyes were wide open. I usually don't sleep.

I grew (did I?) up and went to highschool. I stayed late. I think I was in highschool when I started getting insomia. So, mornings are a drag for me and my sister. The only way you could get me going is by turning on the radio really loud and turning on the lights.

Up until now, I still sleep late. I usually don't like sleeping. I have too much energy to do things I really want to do. Right now, it's 2:25 am. My sister is also awake. Watching DVD in her room while I blog away.

But no, I didn't grow up. Literally. My height today is exactly my height when I was in grade 6. I know because I measure myself. From gradeschool to highschool, I was always in front of the line when teachers ask us to go to the gym or to the auditorium or wherever. I will always be remembered as the little girl.

Whenever I cut my hair short, I would look like a 12-year old. Movie theaters always ask for my ID to make sure I'm part of the 18 and above age group. In Enchanted Kingdom, there was a time I was denied access to the Flying Something because of my height.

But I never really hated my height. Yes, I wished to be a little taller. But I didn't despise being small. In fact when I was growing up, my being small never bothered me at all. I love that I can squeeze into crowds of people or worm my way out of a tight-spaced situation. I also love the fact that I don't have to do anything that involves reaching top shelves or looking afar.

But then I met this cute guy. He's tall. And I mean TALL. He's a 6-footer guy who, compared to me, can be called a giant. And he fell in love with dwarf-looking me. The catch is, I also fell in love with him.

I'm the kind of person who annoys people when they're annoyed. When I was young, when I was into fights, my tactic was to do the very thing that disgusts my enemy. If she hates me for talking loud, I will talk louder. If he hates me for being goofy, I will be goofier.

So now, I'm in a relationship where people we meet likes to stare and point fingers. Yes, everyone. Even my friends. No, I'm not mad. I just don't care.

If people think that we shouldn't be together since he's twice my height, the more I will cling to him. If people are disgust that I only get to hug him when we're in escalators, the more I will hug and kiss him in escalators.

I just don't care.

Bottomline is, I love him.

The only thing that hurts is that important people in our lives think the same way as the rest. They look at us in disgust thinking "He shouldn't be with her... or I shouldn't be with him". Maybe it hurts them that whenever we're together, people do stop and stare.

But to me, let them stop and stare!

We shouldn't be ashamed because we love each other and would want to be together.

I wish they could see that.

And I'm sorry but I am angry. And I mean really angry.

Because for the first time in my life, I hated being small.

-Lo-



Tuesday, April 22, 2008

She said why don't you just drop dead

Hindi ko alam kung saan ko sisimulan ang post na ito. Ahahaha. Kasi magulo na naman utak ko. Siguro tamang simulan itong post sa pagsimula ng aking araw.

Umaga

Gumising ako ng maaga para hindi malate sa scheduled consultation ko sa aking thesis adviser. 3am ako natulog at gumising ako ng 10am. Nakakahiyang maging late. Sa ganitong sitwasyon hindi ko pwedeng sabihin na "I'm not late, everyone's just early" blah blah shit ko.

Moving on, noong nakonsulta ko ang aking thesis adviser, dun lang ako nagising na marami pa pala akong kailangang gawin para sa thesis. At dapat ko ng simulan yun ngayon. Or rather, bukas. Hindi ko alam kung saan ako magsisimula. Gaya ng ginagawa ko sa post ko na ito. Siguro sa simula na lang ako magsisimula.

Tanghali

Nakita ko sina Aizza, Monica at Karen. Kumain kami sa Katag. Matagal-tagal na rin bago ako nakakain sa kantin ni sir Co. Masarap naman yung sinigang na kinain ko. Nakabonding ko si Monica, Karen at si Aizza (kaso ang aga niyang umalis). At sobrang saya ko naman dahil kahit papaano nakabonding ko silang muli (Naks. drama. pero seryoso).

Hapon

Pumunta ako sa bahay ng officemate ni Lawrence dahil mayroong bday celebration. Si Kuya Darwin at Kuya Anwar. :D Tapos nandun siya.

Una, gusto kong iclarify na si siya ay isang babae. Pangalawa, gaya ng sinabi ko kay Lawrence "I'm torn between jealousy and attraction". Pangatlo, sobrang ganda niya.

Well, una pa lang siya. Ang pangalawa ay yung big blow sa akin mula kay Lawrence. Mukhang walang sense yung pagbili ko ng mga dress. Di bale, ako na lang bahala kung saan ko susuotin yun.

Nabagsak ko rin pala yung phone ni Lawrence. Dalawang araw pa lang yung phone na yun. At sobrang pinaghirapan at mahal na mahal ni Lawrence yung phone na yun. It broke my heart. I can't believe I broke my boyfriend's phone! Hay.

This day is not my best day.

-Lo-



Tag! 10 random things.

Because i was tagged
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1. Each blogger starts with ten random facts/habits about themselves.
2. Bloggers that are tagged need to write on their own blog about their ten things and post these rules.
3. At the end of your blog, you need to choose ten people to get tagged and list their names.
4. Don’t forget to leave them a comment telling them they’re tagged, and to read your answers.

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1. Before peeing or doing anything else in the bathroom, I always pinch myself. When I was young, I tend to dream that I'm going to the bathroom only to wake up with my bed drenched with pee. Ever since then, I habitually pinch myself just to distinguish reality from fantasy.

2. I'm a very private and secretive person. People tell me that I'm friendly and is good with social activities. But in reality, there are only a few people who knows the real me. Secrets, flaws and all. :D

3. I'm still a virgin. My parents did a good brain washing technique. Although I am tempted, I can't continue. I also equate sex to pain (not the good kind of pain).

4. When I say something, you have to listen carefully and read between the lines. I tend to hide my true feelings through my words. I'm not a very good verbal communicator so I chose to be a writer. (I also analyze people through their words, which makes me paranoid.)

5. I love to sing. When I was a kid, I have a good voice. There was no radio in our car so everytime we go someplace I sing different songs to pass the time by. My mom says "Naka-long playing ka nga e." I also perform for my relatives and friends. I stop singing when I took voice lessons.

6. I flip out when I don't have my cellphone, laptop, palm and other techy stuff. But I love climbing mountains and staying in provinces. Big irony since usually, I don't have any place to charge my techy gadgets.

7. I love turtles. I love love love them. I will marry the man who will give me a chinese turtle or a tortoise. :D

8. I'm bisexual. I like boys and girls. But I haven't been in a girl-to-girl relationship.

9. I can't remember things from my childhood. That's why I'm always grateful for people who keeps telling me stories about my life as a kid. I don't know why I'm blocking out past memories. But someday I will try my best to retrieve them.

10. I usually don't care about how I dress or present myself. But I'm growing up and going out into the world that tends to care more on the looks of a person so I'm beginning to change my lifestyle. I will try my best to lose weight, dress nicely, wear make-up and charm people with good communications skills.

I Tag (in no particular order): Aizza, Nelson, Claire, Lawrence, Kumi, Monica, Dale, Samantha, Abu, KC

-Lo-



Monday, April 21, 2008

I can't cook.

I tried frying chicken today.

I thought it was great. Apparently, the insides were not really cooked. So yeah, my sister (who is a great cook) didn't eat lunch. I ate 3 chickens before realizing that I didn't cook it right.

When I get a job and have money, I will take some time to enroll in cooking classes. Just the basic ones.

You see, my mom was not really a good cook. She didn't know how to cook until she was married. My dad, however, cooked his first meal when he was 6. My mom had to learn from my dad. Which is not bad since my dad really loves her and does not care if my mom can or can't cook.

But my dad's family is another matter.

I won't go into that tonight.

I want to share a memory. About how good my dad and my sister cooks. And how I envy them.

My sister creates soups. I remember thinking that we should open a restaurant specializing in soups. I could be the manager and my sister could be the head chef. She mixes ingredients and then poof they're delicious. It's like she doesn't even have to try.

My dad got into the phase where he cooked us a lot of gourmet meals. I was looking forward to going home every weekend just because of the meals. And the desserts! My dad made the best maja ever! And I mean, I could eat an entire tray if it wasn't frowned upon. :)

So yes, my dad and my sister can cook very well. My mom is getting better by the minute. She made pininyahang manok the other night. Tsk. I have to get three helpings. :D And I envy them.

Because up until now, all I can cook perfectly is Sinigang.

-Lo-



Sunday, April 20, 2008

Help

Birthday ni Lawrence sa Thursday. At mayroong plano na magdinner with his parents or to join his family to a Bulacan fiesta. For that, kailangan ko maging feminine at perfect na girl para sa kanilang anak. So yes, I need help. I bought two dresses. Which do you think I should wear for the dinner?




















Dress #1: Green trench coat-like Dress #2: Short dress w/ pockets

So, ano mas ok? Pasensya kasi malabo pala yung mirror ko nung tinake ko yung pics.

-Lo-



Saturday, April 19, 2008

Dahil hindi pa ako dalaga (Rant post)

Ayoko nang pumunta sa Tutuban.

Hindi ko alam kung masyado lang akong over-reading o talagang hindi mo lang talaga ako gusto. Either that o talagang magaling ka lang sa pagpoke ng malaking stick sa aking shoulder.

Siya: "Bakit ka bumibili ng dress? Magdadalaga ka na?"
Ako: "A... bagong look lang po."

Siya: "Gabi na. Naghihintay si ---- mo."
Law: "Opo."

Noon...

Siya: "Naka-rubber shoes ka? Dapat nakatakong ka para maging matangkad ka."
Ako: "Ok..."

Hindi ko alam kung ano ang gagawin ko para maging ok ako para sayo... sa inyo actually. Hirap lang talaga ako.

Mahal na mahal ko pa naman anak niyo.

-Lo-



Friday, April 18, 2008

Yey! My own Multiply Skin

Ehehehe. I finally made it. After days of frustration over my laptop (which was named Laura by me and Lawrence), I finally made my own skin. Of course I copied the codes and made adjustments. But in time, I will learn how to make those codes work for me. :P

Isang malaking achievement ito para sa isang batang walang magawa sa bahay na hindi pwedeng lumabas dahil may sakit. Ahahaha. Obviously, wala akong magawa. Isa pa, iniwan ako ng pamilya ko sa bahay. Lahat sila may gimik. Tsk.

Oh well. Bukas lalabas ako. Pupuntang Divi para bumili ng damit. :D Libre ni Sugardaddy Lawrence siyempre. :) Kung ano ang mabili ko sa Divi bukas, yun ang susuotin ko sa Birthday dinner ni Lawrence. Hopefully, hindi ako masyadong mabalaj ng parents niya. *crosses fingers*.

Hmm... mamaya na yung ibang isyus na gusto kong i-rant sa blog ko. Magpapakasaya muna ako na na-achieve ko itong paggawa ng skin. :D Yey!

-Lo-



Thursday, April 17, 2008

Beke o Hindi

Gumising akong masakit ang aking kaliwang panga. Humina rin ang aking pandinig sa kaliwang tenga at masakit ang aking lalamunan.

Boo.

-Lo-



Wednesday, April 16, 2008

Pakikipagbonding kay Claire

Pumunta kaming Trinoma. Naubos ang oras kakahanap ng BPI atm. Kasi pareho kaming walang pera. Maraming kwento. Maraming katatawanan. Marami na naman akong makakalimutan.

Kaya dapat iblog. Ayon kay Kumi, kapag isinulat ko sa blog hindi ko makakalimutan. So ito ang gagawin ko.

Lilista ko na lang kasi yun yung paboritong gawin ni Claire.

1. Masayang masaya ako sa Mercury Drug. Buti na lang pumasok ka roon Claire. Reminder to self: bibili nung manicure kit at solvent para hindi na gumastos sa parlor.

2. Aktibista ako. Hindi lang halata. Kasi iba yung pagiging aktibista ko.

3. Mahal pala ang mga dress.

4. Ironic nga na gusto kong mahawakan ako sa leeg pero ayokong magpaakbay.

5. Masayang kumain sa Burger King kasi marami yung fries, malaki yung burger, kyut yung toy, may malaking tv at may wifi. Yun na magiging tambayan ko.

6. Mahilig kami ni Claire mag-analisa ng mga tao. Sa totoo lang kapag kasama ko siya, siya madalas magSURI ng tao. Pero pareho pala kami.

7. Sayang hindi tayo nakapunta ng Gateway.

8. Codes na lang kasi sensitibo: Five minutes, videocam, erase, gusto ko.

9. Road trip. kailangan lang natin ng may magle-lead.

10. Director ako, ikaw scriptwriter. hanap na tayo ng actors. :D

-Lo-



Failed.

Ever since I could remember I wanted to play the drums.

There's an oppurtunity--training with the UP Pep Squad drummers. I consulted it with my mom and dad. They were ok with it at first. They encourage me and was happy that I was doing lots of things this summer.

But plans have changed. I can no longer train with the Pep Squad.

My family decided that since my sister and I are not going to have summer vacations, we take a little vacation on different places. If I'm going to miss trainings for several weeks, I wouldn't learn and I would be giving up my commitment.

:(

So, no UP Pep Squad Training for me. :(

-Lo-



Monday, April 14, 2008

Gusto ko magpa-sex change

Warning: Magiging sexist ako mga susunod na talatang aking isusulat. Panandalian lamang ito. Wag sanang isipin na itinataksil ko ang aking pagkababae. Pero sa totoo lang, ok lang din kasi hindi naman ako feminist. Pwede siguro akong humanist, pero hindi ko sigurado. Masyado na lumalayo kaya itutuloy ko na ang aking blogpost.

Noong 2nd year highschool ako, sabi ko sa mga kaklase ko na gusto kong maging lalake. Matagal ko na naman gusto yun. Impluwensya siguro sa katotohanang ang gustong anak ng tatay ko ay lalake. Kasama pa nung mga makalumang pribilehiyo ng mga lalake gaya ng maagang pakikipagrelasyon, maagang pakikibarkada, pagpa-party hanggang umaga at iba pa. So nung 2nd year ako, sinabi ko na magpapa-sex change ako.

Sinabi ko yun sa lahat. Naalala ko pa nga na kung hindi man ako magpasex change, gusto ko sa aking kasal ako ang naka-tuxedo at ang asawa ko ang nakawedding gown. Hinding hindi ko makakalimutan yun kasi alam ko nasa chapel pa kami ng school ko nung sinabi ko yun.

Bata pa lang ako, malikot na ako. Wala akong "finesse". Hindi ako mahinhin. Hindi ko pinakikialaman kung nakabukaka ako sa pag-upo o kung magulo buhok ko o hindi. Sabi ko pa nga sa sarili ko, "kung talagang mahal ako ng magiging asawa ko, kahit na hindi ako maganda dapat magustuhan niya ako". Kaya wala akong pakialam kung gaano karami ang peklat ko o kung gaano na ako kaitim sa kakalaro sa labas ng aming bahay.

Isa pa, ang hirap kasing manirahan sa "girl world". Masyadong maraming cat fights, insecurities, secrets, betrayal, etc. Kapag nasa "boy world" basta hindi ka lang lampa ok ka na e. Maglalaro na lang ng basketball o di kaya DOTA. Hindi kasing hirap ng ginagawa ng mga babae.

Gustong gusto ko rin maging lalake kasi mas malapit ako sa mga lalake pagdating sa pakikipagkaibigan. Feeling ko kasi hindi sila plastik. In turn, mukha naman akong malandi sa "girl world". Kaya in the end, tinigil ko na rin yun.

Sa ngayon, kahit papaano nasasanay na ako sa "girl world". Gusto ko pa rin makipagpalit ng katawan kay Lawrence for one day--para lang malaman kung anong feeling maging lalake. Kung tama ba na mas madaling maging lalake kesa maging babae. Pero gusto ko na rin maging babae, may benefits naman. Hindi ko lang talaga siguro kaya yung mga cat fights. Hirap na rin kasi ako sa mga ganun.

Kaya kahit babae ako, magpapaka-lalake na lang ako. Basta hindi ka lang lampa, maglaro tayo ng basketball o DOTA. :D

-Lo-



Sunday, April 13, 2008

Guilt trips

Dahil hindi ako nagsa-summer, nagui-guilty ako. May doubts akong hindi tama ang desisyon ko.

Una, dahil hindi ako makakapag-ojt. Hindi ako makakaranas ng pagsusulat sa magazine o sa pahayagan. Isa pa, pagka-graduate ko wala akong mailalagay sa resume ko kundi freelance tutor ng mga koreyano.

Pangalawa, feeling ko wala akong ginagawa. Gusto kong gumawa ng tesis pero parang ayaw gumana ng isip ko. Pero dapat gumana. Kaya sa lunes, dapat mag-inquire ako kung paano ako makakapaglib ngayong summer. Oh well.

Lilipas din itong guilt trip ko. At sana pagkatapos kong mag-aral, makapasa ako sa UP Law o di kaya'y makahanap agad ng trabaho.

-Lo-



On Climbing Mt. Pulag

Marami akong bagay na gustong sabihin mula sa aking pag-akyat ng bundok. Kaso masyadong mahaba kung hahayaan ko na lang na sabihin lahat ng gusto kong sabihin ng wala mang lang structure or outline. Kaya magna-number blogging na lang ako. yung format na gustung-gusto ni claire.

1. Kaya ko pa lang umakyat ng bundok.

Marami akong gustong gawin sa buhay. Pero dahil pessimist ako, hindi ko ginagawa ang mga yun. Isa pa, buong buhay ko alam kong hindi ako yung sporty na babae. Yung loner, secretive, nerdy na babae pwede pa pero yung sporty hindi. Ni hindi nga ako makasayaw dahil hindi talaga maganda ang coordination ng katawan ko.

2. Marami pa ring magagandang lugar sa Pilipinas.

Lately, naririnig kong nag-uusap ang parents ko. Aalis na raw kami sa Pilipinas. Kaya lang naman hindi kami umaalis dahil ayaw ko at ng tatay ko. Ngunit mukhang on-board na rin ang tatay ko sa pag-aalis ng Pilipinas. Ako na lang ang may ayaw. At dahil hindi naman ako ang nagdedesisyon sa bahay, malamang umalis nga kami. Pag nagkaroon ng pagkakataon. Naisip ko tuloy, andami ko pang hindi nakikitang lugar sa sarili kong bansa tapos aalis na kami? Para bang lilipat kami ng bahay kahit na hindi pa namin na gamit ang lahat ng kwarto ng bahay namin. Dahil posibleng umalis kami, dapat makita ko na ang Pilipinas.

3. May pagka-control freak ako.

Given na yata eto. Pero na-affrim na naman ito sa pag-akyat ko ng Mt. Pulag. Hindi ko talaga kayang mag-let go at mag-enjoy. Lagi ko na lang pinoproblema yung mga magiging problema kung sakaling magkaroon nga ng problema. Buti na lang hindi kami nag-away ng kapatid ko habang nagka-climb. Kundi malungkot ang bakasyon namin.

4. Isa akong pagong.

Slowly but surely, naakyat namin ang Mt. Pulag. Hindi kami yung mga mabilis o magaling umakyat. Kami yung last man kumbaga. Pero natutuwa pa rin ako dahil kahit na mabagal kami ng kapatid ko, nakaya namin ang Mt. Pulag. At nakita at naranasan namin ang dapat maranasan. Madalas ngang ako yung pagong. Mabagal akong makakuha ng steps, mabagal akong kumain, mabagal akong gumalaw. Pero sinisiguro ko na kapag ako na ang gumalaw, matutupad at matatapos ko iyon.

5. Hindi ako mahilig sa sunrise, pero nagustuhan ko yung sa Mt. Pulag.

Alam ng mga taong malapit sa akin na hindi ako morning person. Hindi ko talaga kayang gumising ng maaga. Madalas akong gising sa gabi. May pagka-insomniac kasi ako. Pero kinaya kong gumising ng 3:00am kahit na pagod na pagod ako sa paglalakad pa-akyat ng bundok. Para lang makita ang sunrise. At oo, nain-love ako sa sunrise na yun. Sa unang pagkakataon, ni hindi ko maikumapara yung pinakamagandang sunset na nakita ko sa sunrise ng Mt. Pulag.

Marami pa akong mga pics kaso nagkaproblema ako sa lighting. Pero nirerekomenda ko na makita niyo itong sunrise na ito. Punta kayo ng Mt. Pulag.

At kapag pupunta na kayo, sasama ako. :)

-Lo-

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