rock on

Monday, March 31, 2008

To summer class or not to summer class?

That is the question.

I've been thinking about it lately. I only have 4 subjects left until I graduate. I can finish the 2 subjects this summer and then the 2 subjects next sem. But I'm thinking that this summer vacation will be the last summer vacation.

Once I graduate and get a job (assuming I could find one quickly), there won't be anymore summer vacations. I could take leave of absences but those need to be approved by my boss. And for once, I want to really enjoy my summer vacation.

Usually, summer vacation to me is just bumming around the house. But this summer, I want to climb mountains. I'm taking the first step by climbing Mt. Pulag this coming April4-6.

If I can't climb mountains, maybe I can go on roadtrips. I really love taking the bus, so I don't have to worry about gas prices and borrowing the car or something. Maybe I could get to visit exciting places in Luzon.

Or maybe I could actually start and finish my scrapbook. My dad (who really admires me for being a writer) gave me a blank notebook for my 16th bday. He made it all by himself by cutting a leather jacket using it as a cover and bound some papers. I really loved that gift. And I promise to write my life in those pages. I just never got around to doing it since I really think it's precious. When I think something is precious I don't want to touch it. It's like I don't want to mess it up by using it. So, maybe I could get the courage to use it this summer.

I could also concentrate on my health. I should try to get more fit and healthy. I should also read all of my stand-by books (books I bought but never got around to reading) or concentrate on improving my photography or guitar skills.

Or I could learn Photoshop and Video-editing because I really really really want to learn ever since highschool.

But having my summer vacation means responsibilities. I have to make sure that even if I'm going to have my vacation, I have to start on my thesis. I have to make sure that I get all research done by the end of June since I'm going to take 3 more classes next sem.

I really want to enjoy my summer. Maybe I should stay home and forget about my academic adventures for once. I have so much stuff to do with so little time.

It's my last summer vacation, I should enjoy it right?

-Lo-

Sunday, March 30, 2008

Overnight Fantasy

Instead of revising my proposal, I rewarded myself some fun after going through a tough time this sem. :D I was invited to an overnight swimming gig with Lawrence and his college friends.

The most shocking bit was that my Dad and my Mom actually let me. :)

I didn't go swimming since I have a thing for clean water and stuff. I'm beginning to freak out of dirt and germs and bacterias. I'm even freaking myself out.

But then I got to sleep beside Lawrence, which was all worth it. :P

I really can't sleep with someone sleeping beside me. I also can't sleep when there are people coming in and out of the room, talking and turning the lights on and off. I also can't sleep when somebody's hugging me.

Basically, I didn't really get some sleep. I was just sooo happy to watch Lawrence sleep. He's too innocent. :D

Now, I have to get back to the real world. I need to finish revising my proposal. And officially start my summer vacation.

-Lo-

Thursday, March 27, 2008

Galing sa blog ni dale

Can you answer 50 questions about the 1st person that comes into your mind right now?

Don’t change the person.

Does he or she have a
boyfriend/girlfriend??
- yes.

How old is the person?
- 21. turning 22 next month. :D

Has he/she ever cooked for you?
- yes. the first meal he cooked for me was sinigang.

Is this person older than you?
- yes.

Have you ever kissed this person?
- yes.

Are you really close to him/her?'
- yes. he knows everything about me. even the secrets i don't tell him.

How many times do you talk to this person in a week?
- everyday.

Do you think he/she will repost this?
- no.

Could you live with this person?
- i wish we can. but soon... hopefully.

Why did you choose this person?
- because i constantly think about him. he's the most important person in my life right now.

How long have you known this person??
- known? hmmm... 3 years, 5 mos., 26 days.

Have you ever been to the mall with this person?
- yes.

Have you ever had a sleepover with this person?
- uhm. i'm not allowed to say. ahahaha.

If you ever moved away would you miss this person?
- most definetely.

Have you ever done something really stupid or illegal with this person?
- illegal? well... illegal on my standards, not really the society's.

Do you know everything about this person?
- i can say yes. :D

Would you date this person’s siblings?
- he has none.

Have you ever made something with this person?
- yes. we made memories (which i've forgotten... well, most of them), food (sinigang), projects and other blah blah blah.

Have you ever worn this person’s clothes?
- yes. his shirts. i have some here. :D

Have you and your person made up a hand shake?
- no. :( we should!

If it was “freaky friday” would you switch bodies with this person?
- yes. DEFINITELY!!

Have you ever heard this person sing?
- yes.

Do you and this person have a saying?
- hmmm... i'll get back to you on that one.

Do you know this persons friendster password?
- yes.

Have you and this person ever gotten into a fight or argument?
- yes. but only one of us will be mad while the other is calm.

Have you and this person gone clubbing?
- yes. well, we quit after a few minutes of staying.

Do you know how to make this person feel happy?
- i think so. i should.

Do you and this person talk a lot?
- yes.

Do you like this person?
- likey likey.

Have you and this person got into a fight?
- ...

Do you want to go out with this person??
- i'm going out with him tomorrow.

Do you want to be friends with him/her forever?
- yes.

-Lo-

Today is Bad Luck Day

As the title states.

Tomorrow, I'm going to submit my last finals requirement. But then I have to get my proposal and see if it needs revision. If it does, maybe on Monday I'll officially start my summer.

I'm getting tired.

-Lo-

Tuesday, March 25, 2008

Isang multimedia presentation na lang

at matatapos na ang aking 2nd sem!

hindi na ako makapaghintay sa aking mt. climbing adventure. :P Sana makaya ko ang mt. Pulag. Sana rin hindi na macancel yun gaya ng mt. pinatubo.

At bago pa ang aking mt. pulag adventure, makakapagovernight pa kaming sikap people sa Boso-boso Highlands. Ehehehe. Sana maging masaya ang aming overnight. Lalo na't last na naming overnight ito--> mga gra-gradweyt sa oktubre. :D

Lahat ng mga kaibigan ko, may trabaho na. Actually, grad pa lang yung iba. Pero may trabaho na rin yung iba. At very inggit lang ako kasi may trabaho na sila. At nakakatakot rin... lalo na't wala pa akong naibibigay na resume para sa aking OJT. Sana matanggap ako. Kahit saan pero mas ok sa magandang place. :)

Wish me luck.

-Lo-

Saturday, March 22, 2008

Bubba Gump date

Finally, I got to eat at the Bubba Gump Shrimp Co. resto. :)

I especially want to check it out since it's the restaurant that Forrest Gump build with Lt. Dan with Bubba's inspiration. We learned that the producers where the ones who made it into a real business.

Anyways, we spent our Black Saturday night in Trinoma. We got to shop (sale kasi) for necessities. :D Because my dad is really excited that I will be climbing mountains soon, he got me new stuff. He bought me gears that I need. I'm sooo excited.

Problem is... the Mt. Pinatubo climb is cancelled. Nobody wanted to enroll so all I could do is wait for the next one--the Mt. Pulag climb. I'm crossing my fingers that it wouldn't be cancelled or anything. :D Because I really really really want to climb mountains.

After our Trinoma date, we went to Metrowalk to buy some DVDs. We no longer watch movies in the cinemas. Unless if it's a Filipino movie. Because the pirated Filipino movies usually suck. So we opt to watch it in cinemas or wait for it on TV.

I got heroes season2. well, the first one I got wasn't really complete. I want PUSHING DAISIES. I hope ETC or 2nd Avenue or Jack TV get Pushing Daisies. So that I can wait for it on TV. :D

I think my family's ok now. Tomorrow, we have a family reunion thing. But I'm not going. I have to do one paper work for school. And I have no more time to waste. :D

-Lo-

Tuesday, March 18, 2008

Minsan ako'y nabingi

Mayroon kang sinabi sa akin
kaso hindi ko narinig
pinaulit ko
pero wala talaga

tsaka ko naisip
bingi nga ba ako?
o sadyang ayaw ko lang marinig ang ngalan niya?

yak. korni.

pffft.
para kay. hmmm... kanino nga ba ito?

-Lo-

Thursday, March 13, 2008

She's ALIVE!!

My baby (laptop) is healed! :D

After Lawrence and I attempted to switch her OS to Windows XP, she died. And I mean really died. :( I couldn't use her for days.

Yes, this is pathetic. I'm in love with a gadget. But I have depended my life on her. She was an addiction. :( I guess if Die Hard 4.0 happen, I'd be one of the geeks who would be screaming and bitching just because I couldn't get any internet connection or something to that effect.

Oh, I remember. I was a total bitch when the big storm hit Manila. I think it was Milenyo. Five days of no electricity in our house. I was screaming and bitching because I didn't have any full-charge cellphone batteries. I distinctly remember my family wanting to kill me back then.

Hmmm. I should go back to the basics, to the wild. :D

Anyways, there's an open climb for Mt. Pinatubo this coming March 29-30. Who wants to come with me? Please come with me... :) it's going to be fun! I can share tents and stuff. :D And another one in Mt. Pulag this coming April 4-6. Please message me if you want to come so that we can plan :D

Check out bomikaoutdoors.multiply.com for more info. :D let's climb!!

-Lo-

Friday, March 07, 2008

30 hours academic adventure

-Lo-

Sunday, March 02, 2008

academic adventures

Mga kinakailangan gawin para sa nalalabing 2 linggo. :D

AP199
-critic on Jeni's proposal (march7)
-revised proposal

Physics10
-3rd exam
-finals exam

PanPil181
-film appreciation paper on 'House of the Spirits' (march4)
-My favorite Poet paper
-'One Day in A Life' finals paper

PI100
-finals paper
-quizzes

J123
-final plates (multimedia presentation)

J152
-Press conference (march6)

konting tiis na lang....

-Lo-

Saturday, March 01, 2008

Breakdown nth time

I broke down again.

I'm beginning to worry since I have been breaking down a lot of times this year. Mostly involving my family. And there are small triggers.

So yeah.

My sister moved in my room just last Thursday. That's when I realize offering her a share in my room is a mistake. I'm a very controlling person. And she likes to defy that. So, in the end I asked her to move out.

But she didn't want to.

I was going to take a nap. She was on my bed. I don't sharing bed space. I have a personal space thing. So there. I went off. She then said she's sleeping on the floor. Which she did. Which made me feel guilty and then talked to her about moving out again.

She didn't want to. I went to my parents' bedroom to take a nap and eventually told my mom that I want Gray to move out of my room. She said no. Gray walked in. She said I was a coward for not fighting my own fights. I lost it.

I cried and I screamed. They laugh. I suggested me moving in on an apartment on my own. My mom joked that I move in with her friend (a psychologist). I screamed and screamed and screamed. I think I even threaten to strangle my sister. And I went to my room, got all her pillows and her dog. Threw everything on the bed. My mom suddenly realizing I was not kidding, stopped laughing and started getting angry.

I continued to move her out.

And after, I cried.

Because they think I'm crazy. And it's sad and hurtful when your family thinks you're crazy.

I know I shouldn't have lost it. But I'm sick. I didn't get much sleep last night. I have lots of things to do. And I need space. Plus, they laughed.

My mom and I had a talk recently on how they don't really know me. They don't know what I like because I don't tell them.

Which is sad because my parents don't know me. Hell, my boyfriend knows me more than they do. And my mom reasoned it was because I talk and share lots of my time with Lawrence. But in my head, no. Lawrence knows more about me because he listens. And I mean really listens.

And I have proven that theory. I tried talking to my mom. Telling her what I want. She then ignores me and just went about her business.

My resolution... maybe I should just mimic Clara from House of the Spirits. I should do that. Not speak to anyone anymore. Could I do that? Nah. Maybe I should just stop speaking to my family. They don't understand me anyway.

I'll be waiting for my mom and dad to talk to me and announcing that they're asking for psychiatric help. Maybe I need therapy.

It's just sad.

-Lo-