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Monday, June 16, 2008

When I enter a relationship, I am serious about it.

My mother recently talked to me about being open to meeting new people. I said meeting new people for friends? Of course I'm open to that. No. She says if I'm open to meeting new people to date. So I could keep my options open. So that I could still fish for better fish. Something to that effect.

Well, my mom clearly doesn't know me. FYI: when I enter a relationship, I am serious about it. I will be committed. That's what relationships are for. To be committed to someone. To choose to be committed to someone.

And suddenly my mom gives me the speech where I'm so wrap up in Lawrence that my life revolves around Lawrence. Her evidence being all the things I do, I do with Lawrence. All my friends are Lawrence's friends.

What?!!?

Ok, first of all. I am insulted. Because my mom thinks I'm this clingy clingy girlfriend. I may be overreading but to me that's what is says. Next, I'm offended because the person I chose to be my greatest confidante is being tossed around by her saying 'he doesn't have a backbone', 'he follows you around like a dog'.

Oh COME On!!

First, it took me so hard to open up to someone like Lawrence. And believe me, I haven't opened up enough at this point! And then she just shuts it down says I'm too clingy and that I can't do stuff without having Lawrence? What great reasoning right?

She says that me climbing mountains with Lawrence, us going to plays and all that stuff I usually like (that we do together) is a sign of me not being able to do anything without Lawrence. FYI, Lawrence and I like the same things. That's what makes us good. I mean, I liked mountain climbing. He decided to give it a try and boom! he liked it. If he liked it and I go mountain climbing, shouldn't I invite him? Right?

Photography. I like it, Lawrence likes it. My mom says if he likes it, how come he doesn't have a camera? Because he's not that rich mom!! He's not in our situation. How come? He works now, can't he buy his own camera? No, mom. Because he pays the bills in their house. Because he is saving up for something else. But he is thinking of buying a camera.

Why would I be open to dating people? Because in the end, that's the bottomline of my mom's speech. Sure, I'll be interested in meeting new people. But if they turn out to like me and ask me out on a date, I will say no. Why?

BECAUSE I'M IN A RELATIONSHIP!!

-Lo-