Wednesday, January 30, 2008
Fever
My mind hurts alot lately. And sleep is the only remedy.
I'm thinking that my brain can no longer accomodate too much of my thoughts. All I want is to sleep.
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A friend texted me today. She asked "What is your purpose in Life?"
I sooo wanted to reply. But I was lazy. Anyways, my answer would've been "To survive it."
-Lo-
Saturday, January 26, 2008
I shall seal the deal
ria :D 
2. Face Down... actually anything by the Red Jumpsuit Apparatus.
3. Tamarind
4. Baka naman natagpuan na ng mga gusto nating ipagtagpo ang isa't isa. Hehe.
5. The girl in a blue shirt, shorts and flipflops introduced to me by Ohwee at SBC Katipunan. :)
6. Maltese. Hehe coz they're so cute and huggable and loving. Hahaha. And smart too!
7. Bat interest mong aralin ang rape? Hindi ko kasi masikmura ang krimen na ito pero sa tingin ko nga, dapat pag-aralan. :)
Ito ang sagot ni ria sa akin nung ginawa niya yung kanyang Permack Principle. Magco-comment lang sa blog niya (gaya nito) pagkatapos magrereply ako para sagutin ang sumusunod:
1. I'll respond with something random about you.
2. I'll tell you what song/movie reminds me of you.
3. I'll pick a flavor of jello to wrestle with you in.
4. I'll say something that only makes sense to you and me.
5. I'll tell you my first/clearest memory of you.
6. I'll tell you what animal you remind me of.
7. I'll ask you something that I've always wondered about you.
8. If I do this for you, you must post this on your journal (your choice) :D
Let the games begin! :D
-Lo-
Monday, January 21, 2008
Sabi ni Claire dapat dine-define mo kung sino ka, para alam mo kung nag-eexist ka.
Simula pa noong 4th year highschool ako, nawalan na ako ng gusto. Bineblame ko ang daddy ko. Sa tuwing tatanungin niya kami ng kapatid ko kung ano namin gustong kainin, saan pupunta at kung anu-ano pa, matapos namin sabihin yung gusto namin, kinokontra niya ito at masusunod yung gusto niya. Simula noon, wala na akong gusto.
Sabi ko sa sarili ko, sa mga maliliit na bagay lang ako magiging indecisive. Gaya ng kung ano ang kakainin ko o kung ano ang susuotin ko. Pero hindi ko alam, naging lifestyle ko na siya. Kaya hindi na rin ako nakakapagdesisyon kung ano nga ba ang gusto ko sa buhay.
Kaya ngayong taon, resolusyon ko ang idefine kung anu-ano nga ba ang mga gusto ko. Kailangan na akong madepina. Kailangan ko maprove na ako'y nag-eexist.
Ito ang ilang mga bagay na pinag-isipan ko at napagdesisyunan kong gusto ko.
1. Gusto ko mag-wall climbing. Hindi pala natanggal sa akin yun mula pa noong grade6 ako. Nadagdagan lang ng 'gusto kong mag-spelunking'.
2. Hilig ko ang photography. Naglinis si mommy ng mga dati naming gamit. Nakakita ako ng picture ng 1st communion ng kapatid ko. Nakakatawa kasi extra lang ako sa picture. Dun ko nakita na may hawak akong camera. Hindi ko na maalala yun. Ang naaalala ko lang, ako ang photographer ng yearbook at newspaper namin sa school noong 4th year highschool. Hindi ko alam na noong bata pa pala, gusto ko na yung photography.
3. Mahilig ako sa mga gadgets. And I take good care of them. As in obsessive compulsive love for my gadgets.
4. Mahal na mahal ko ang patis. Hindi ko talaga kayang kumain ng walang patis.
5. Napatunayan ko na na mahal ko rin talaga ang sinigang na baboy. Kasi kahit araw-araw kong kainin yun ok lang e. Hindi ako nagsasawa. :D
Yan pa lang naisip ko e. Medyo indecisive ako sa iba pang bagay. Pero at least ngayon, alam ko na yung iba kong tunay na gusto.
Nag-eexist ako.
-Lo-
Wednesday, January 16, 2008
Sir Jun said "Kung hindi ka korni, hindi ka inlove..."
Die Alone
-Ingrid Michaelson
I woke up this morning with a funny taste in my head.
Spackled some butter over my whole grain bread.
Something tastes different, maybe it's my tongue.
Something tastes different, suddenly I'm not so young.
I'm just a stranger, even to myself.
A re-arranger of the proverbial bookshelf.
Don't be a fool girl, tell him you love him.
Don't be a fool girl, you're not above him.
I never thought I could love anyone but myself.
Now I know I can't love anyone but you.
You make me think that maybe I won't die alone.
Maybe I won't die alone.
Kiss the boys as they walk by, call me their baby.
But little do they know, I'm just a maybe.
Maybe my baby will be the one to leave me sore.
Maybe my baby will settle the score.
I never thought I could love anyone but myself.
Now I know I can't love anyone but you.
You make me think that maybe I won't die alone.
Maybe I won't die alone.
What have I become?
Something soft and really quite dumb.
Because I've fallen, oh, 'cuz I've fall-fallen, oh 'cuz I've fall-fall-fallen
So far away from the place where I started from.
I never thought I could love anyone.
I never thought I could love anyone.
I never thought I could love anyone,
But you, but you, but you, but you, but you
But you make me think that maybe I won't die alone.
Maybe I won't die alone.
-Lo-
For my Masochist
Masochist
-Ingrid Michaelson
She says you're a masochist for falling for me,
So roll up your sleeves.
And I think that I like her, 'cuz she tells me things I don't want to hear,
Medicinal tongue in my ear.
When will it stop? When will it stop?
When will I feel all soft on the inside?
When will I feel all soft on the inside?
When will I feel soft, soft?
You say that my skin feels like no one else's,
That it's different somehow.
But I don't understand, isn't a hand just a hand?
No you don't understand.
When will it start? My broken part?
When will I feel all soft on the inside?
When will I feel all soft on the inside?
When will I feel soft, soft?
Oooo
When will I feel all soft on the inside?
When will I feel all soft on the inside?
When will I feel soft, soft?
She says you're a masochist for falling for me.
-Lo-
This isn't what my first blog of the year is supposed to be about.
I was suppose to blog about discovering myself, my Banawe-Sagada-Baguio trip and my professor. But because of the stress the first week of Acad life 2008 surprised me, I haven't been able to write.
I don't want to write about this. But I have to.
I miss you.
I miss you because I am jealous. Damn.
Pacify me.
This is soooo frustrating.
Nah. Never mind me.
It's just one of those days.
-Lo-