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Sunday, August 19, 2007

20 things I need to say

Instructions are to write down something you've always wanted to say but could never really say, to 20 people... The catch is, you can't say who you're saying them to. so, random to ha!! kung mahuhulaan mo man kung sino-sino sila, edi masaya! goodluck nalang sayo! *perfect sa may mga kaaway, may katampuhan, at may mga ispesyal someones hehehe.

1. a friend of ours once asked me if I loved you. I said yes, I love you in a friendly way. Ahahaha. I can never truly explain our friendship. I can never explain our little group. We don't usually hang out, but to you, I'm always comfortable saying things I would normally just say to myself. Thank you for being that kind of friend.

2. You were my friend! I trusted you!! How could you not understand me? I've been trying to understand you for years and then just like that you ruin my college life? I'm so mad at you but I can't seem to tell you this. I know you're just going to turn me down and wished I was never alive. You're a bully!

3. Masaya ako na madali na tayong nagkakausap kahit sa text lang. Ok na yung ganito. Hindi ko na kailangang sirain pa ang relasyong ito.

4. Salamat dahil kahit anong mangyari nandyan ka pa rin para tumulong. Hindi man ako tunay na ka-close mo (hindi kasi tayo palaging nagshashare, ako may kasalanan), tinuturi mo akong napakalapit mong kaibigan. Salamat. Umpisa pa lang alam kong magiging mabuti kang kaibigan. Ikaw rin ang favorite partner ko sa cam-whoring. Ahahaha.

5. Alam kong marami kang iniisip na problema sa ngayon, sana malaman mo na hindi mo kailangan pakialaman at pakinggan ang sinasabi ng iba. Alam naman natin na hindi mo kailangan i-prove ang sarili mo. Lalo na sa kanila. Nandito kami. Nandito ako.

6. Friend, wag mo masyadong i-blame ang sarili mo sa nangyari. Tama na ang torture. Sinasabi ko sayo. Ang tanging maibibigay mo sa kanya ay hindi ang sorry mo kundi ang dati nyong pagkakaibigan. Hindi na kailangan ng pag-iilang. Makakayanan niyo yan.

7. Hindi na natuloy ang Divi Trip natin! Ikaw kasi eh! Pupunta ng Baguio tapos hindi rin naman tuloy! Ahahaha.

8. Salamat sa pagtawag mo at pagtext mo sakin. Namimiss na rin kita. Ibang klase kang kaibigan. Alam mo bang naiingit ako sayo? Dahil ikaw ang epitome ng simple is beautiful. Miss na miss na kita. Sana matatawag pa rin kitang bestfriend kahit na hindi na tayo nagkakasama.

9. May nililigawan ka na ba? Masyado ka kasing concentrated sa pag-aaral mo eh! Tama na yan. Break muna. Kita tayo sa Shang. Makipagdebate ka uli sakin. Manlait tayo ng tao. Kantahan mo ako ng bagong Dashboard Confessional/NOFX. Libre mo ako. Ahahaha! Bestfriend talaga kita.

10. Hindi mo ako naiintindihan. Pero sana malaman mo na, hindi man lahat ng ginagawa ko, marami sa mga ginagawa ko para sayo. Mahal kita. Sana naman ma-appreciate mo yung mga ginagawa ko. Sa huli, tayong dalawa rin naman ang magkakasama. Pinag-iipunan ko na yung bank account natin na pupunuin natin para makapag-world trip.

11. Pasensya na kung palagi kitang nasisigawan. Lagi lang akong stress at minsan ayoko yung paraan mo ng pagsasalita. Mahal pa rin kita. Hindi magbabago yun. Sana wag ka masyadong magpuyat. Anemic ka. Natatakot akong gumising na wala ka.

12. Stop it with your PRIDE! The reason why we don't get along is because you have that big wall!! I'm family. I love you. Please, I try to open up to you but oftentimes you just shut me down. And stop eating sweets! We're not really sure we can make it as family without you.

13. You're a different kind of friend. I may never truly understand your personality. But you're a good friend. You're really really funny.

14. When are you coming back to the Philippines? I thought that you're coming back? Bakit hindi ka na nagpapakita sa YM? May nasabi ba akong masama?

15. Magiging nurse ka na! Busy-busyhan. Sana makapag-get together tayo.

16. You broke me. I hate you. I love you. You broke me.

17. I can never get how you made me want to share my every meal. You are really a heavensent friend. I love you soooo much! You are such an inspiration. Miss na miss na kita. Sana talaga mag-rent tayo ng apartment ano? I'm sooo happy na mayroon ka ng matatawag na mahal. :)

18. Crush kita. Kaso nagustuhan mo kaibigan ko e. Kaya tama na lang na magkaibigan na lang tayo. Sana magreply ka na. Bumili ka na rin ng bagong telepono para nacocontact ka.

19. Where are you? I want you to see who you left. Eat your heart out.

20. You will always be the fairy tale that can never come true. I hope the time I have given us would be enough for us to sleep at night and be happy. When the time comes, maybe we can be together. Free from worries, free from pressures, free from constraints. You broke down my barriers, I love you for that. I know that we are meant to be together but I guess this is just not our time. I can never tell you how much I love you because I'm not really good with that. I just hope you know. I will always be that princess, the one who will be waiting for you on top of that tower... sleeping until you kiss me again.

-Lo-