Friday, August 31, 2007
The things you learn on TV
I will blog about my opinions on Chris Mendez on the next entry. I think I need more research before I could voice out my opinions.
But another topic we tackled was the Wilyonaryo scandal.
First, I agree with Aykel. These hosts aren't suppose to be shown on primetime. I know people make mistakes but as a celebrity you're suppose to be responsible for your own actions. You would probably give out messages to whomever admires you. So why do we have rapists and wife beaters as hosts of the noon-time shows?
Subconsciously, people who will watch them would think it's ok to do bad things, crimes even, since these people (hosts) did them before yet they're regarded as the most generous people on earth. I could just do a crime and then give money to the poor and then I will be regarded as a clean person.
That's Bullshit.
I want to insert my comment to the Regine + Oggie relationship. It's Angelina Jolie + Brad Pitt scandal over again. It's makes it look like having an affair is ok as long as you look good together. Pathetic.
Second, why the hell didn't Willie defend his show first. It would have been less scandalous. If he defended the show first, before expressing his "pikon" opinion of Joey de Leon, he could've saved a lot of time and effort.
But of course everyone knows that all of this is simply done to get their ratings up.
Pathetic.
-Lo-
Tuesday, August 28, 2007
Apologies
Yes, I'm admitting to my faults. I'm sorry for putting you out there as if you're the most evil person on earth. My only defense is that I wasn't thinking clearly when I wrote what I wrote. I didn't consider your feelings or your side of the story. For that, I'm sorry.
I have been unfair to you for most of the time we were together. I don't want to be unfair to you to the last minute that you're together.
I'm sorry. Don't tell me that I shouldn't apologize because I know I do. And although I know you understand why I did those things. My reasons were not enough to validate what I did.
Again, I'm sorry for the rants, bitter posts, insults and most of all... the heartbreak.
Thank you for understanding. :)
Yours truly,
Your bestfriend. XD
-Lo-
Monday, August 27, 2007
wish wish wish
how i wish i could have this guy.
-Lo-
Sunday, August 19, 2007
20 things I need to say
Instructions are to write down something you've always wanted to say but could never really say, to 20 people... The catch is, you can't say who you're saying them to. so, random to ha!! kung mahuhulaan mo man kung sino-sino sila, edi masaya! goodluck nalang sayo! *perfect sa may mga kaaway, may katampuhan, at may mga ispesyal someones hehehe.
1. a friend of ours once asked me if I loved you. I said yes, I love you in a friendly way. Ahahaha. I can never truly explain our friendship. I can never explain our little group. We don't usually hang out, but to you, I'm always comfortable saying things I would normally just say to myself. Thank you for being that kind of friend.
2. You were my friend! I trusted you!! How could you not understand me? I've been trying to understand you for years and then just like that you ruin my college life? I'm so mad at you but I can't seem to tell you this. I know you're just going to turn me down and wished I was never alive. You're a bully!
3. Masaya ako na madali na tayong nagkakausap kahit sa text lang. Ok na yung ganito. Hindi ko na kailangang sirain pa ang relasyong ito.
4. Salamat dahil kahit anong mangyari nandyan ka pa rin para tumulong. Hindi man ako tunay na ka-close mo (hindi kasi tayo palaging nagshashare, ako may kasalanan), tinuturi mo akong napakalapit mong kaibigan. Salamat. Umpisa pa lang alam kong magiging mabuti kang kaibigan. Ikaw rin ang favorite partner ko sa cam-whoring. Ahahaha.
5. Alam kong marami kang iniisip na problema sa ngayon, sana malaman mo na hindi mo kailangan pakialaman at pakinggan ang sinasabi ng iba. Alam naman natin na hindi mo kailangan i-prove ang sarili mo. Lalo na sa kanila. Nandito kami. Nandito ako.
6. Friend, wag mo masyadong i-blame ang sarili mo sa nangyari. Tama na ang torture. Sinasabi ko sayo. Ang tanging maibibigay mo sa kanya ay hindi ang sorry mo kundi ang dati nyong pagkakaibigan. Hindi na kailangan ng pag-iilang. Makakayanan niyo yan.
7. Hindi na natuloy ang Divi Trip natin! Ikaw kasi eh! Pupunta ng Baguio tapos hindi rin naman tuloy! Ahahaha.
8. Salamat sa pagtawag mo at pagtext mo sakin. Namimiss na rin kita. Ibang klase kang kaibigan. Alam mo bang naiingit ako sayo? Dahil ikaw ang epitome ng simple is beautiful. Miss na miss na kita. Sana matatawag pa rin kitang bestfriend kahit na hindi na tayo nagkakasama.
9. May nililigawan ka na ba? Masyado ka kasing concentrated sa pag-aaral mo eh! Tama na yan. Break muna. Kita tayo sa Shang. Makipagdebate ka uli sakin. Manlait tayo ng tao. Kantahan mo ako ng bagong Dashboard Confessional/NOFX. Libre mo ako. Ahahaha! Bestfriend talaga kita.
10. Hindi mo ako naiintindihan. Pero sana malaman mo na, hindi man lahat ng ginagawa ko, marami sa mga ginagawa ko para sayo. Mahal kita. Sana naman ma-appreciate mo yung mga ginagawa ko. Sa huli, tayong dalawa rin naman ang magkakasama. Pinag-iipunan ko na yung bank account natin na pupunuin natin para makapag-world trip.
11. Pasensya na kung palagi kitang nasisigawan. Lagi lang akong stress at minsan ayoko yung paraan mo ng pagsasalita. Mahal pa rin kita. Hindi magbabago yun. Sana wag ka masyadong magpuyat. Anemic ka. Natatakot akong gumising na wala ka.
12. Stop it with your PRIDE! The reason why we don't get along is because you have that big wall!! I'm family. I love you. Please, I try to open up to you but oftentimes you just shut me down. And stop eating sweets! We're not really sure we can make it as family without you.
13. You're a different kind of friend. I may never truly understand your personality. But you're a good friend. You're really really funny.
14. When are you coming back to the Philippines? I thought that you're coming back? Bakit hindi ka na nagpapakita sa YM? May nasabi ba akong masama?
15. Magiging nurse ka na! Busy-busyhan. Sana makapag-get together tayo.
16. You broke me. I hate you. I love you. You broke me.
17. I can never get how you made me want to share my every meal. You are really a heavensent friend. I love you soooo much! You are such an inspiration. Miss na miss na kita. Sana talaga mag-rent tayo ng apartment ano? I'm sooo happy na mayroon ka ng matatawag na mahal. :)
18. Crush kita. Kaso nagustuhan mo kaibigan ko e. Kaya tama na lang na magkaibigan na lang tayo. Sana magreply ka na. Bumili ka na rin ng bagong telepono para nacocontact ka.
19. Where are you? I want you to see who you left. Eat your heart out.
20. You will always be the fairy tale that can never come true. I hope the time I have given us would be enough for us to sleep at night and be happy. When the time comes, maybe we can be together. Free from worries, free from pressures, free from constraints. You broke down my barriers, I love you for that. I know that we are meant to be together but I guess this is just not our time. I can never tell you how much I love you because I'm not really good with that. I just hope you know. I will always be that princess, the one who will be waiting for you on top of that tower... sleeping until you kiss me again.
-Lo-
Saturday, August 18, 2007
A Few Realizations
You will never do something that you think will endanger you. That's why I think I can't trust you.
You will always lie.
You say things that might come off as you're caring for me, but the truth is it's just that you're tired or simply caring for your self.
You can never stand up for yourself.
You can never stand up for me.
You always strive to make me happy but you will never make me happy, because the things that I will make me happy is exactly the things you're afraid to do.
---bitter post---
-Lo-
Tuesday, August 14, 2007
PUTTING SENSE IN FASHION SENSE: Shaping the Image of a Leader
Our speakers are Prof. Ma. Theresa Jasminez of the College of Mass Communications and speakers from Mary Kay. :)
There will be games, prizes and demonstrations on how to dress right (e.g. putting on make up, putting on a tie).
Please come in casual wear. :D
-Lo-
Semi-breakdown.
Mayroon akong 'trust issues'. Hindi ako madaling magtrust. Hindi ako madaling humingi ng tulong. Syempre, madali lang humingi ng tulong sa maliliit na bagay. Kaya ko yun. Kaso kapag sa malalaking bagay na nahihirapan ako.
Alam ni Lawrence yun. As much as possible, hindi ko siya natrust sa mga bagay na sa tingin ko ay hindi niya makakaya, hindi ko man alam kung tama yun o hindi. Ganun din ako sa aking pamilya, kaibigan. Nakakahiya man sabihin ito, may pagkaperfectionist ako na negatibo.
Pagdating sa emosyonal na problema, hindi rin ako nagsasalita. Nagsasabi ako kapag napapagod ako pero hindi ko sinasabi kung anong tunay na rason. Marami akong kinikimkim. Marami akong maskara.
Kilala ako bilang isang kaibigan na madaling puntahan. Kapag may problema ka, kausapin mo ako handa akong makinig. Kung kailangan mo ng advise, bibigyan kita. Kung kailangan mo ng tulong, nandoon ako.
Nakakatawang isipin na kapag ako na ang namomoblema, hindi ako makahingi ng tulong. Hindi dahil sa alam kong tatanggihan ako. Dahil lang sa iniisip kong tatanggihan ako. Dahil alam kong kadalasan tinatanggihan. Ganun ako ka-negative mag-isip. Ika nga ni Claire, 'ako na ang pinaka-paranoid na tao na nakilala niya.'
Hindi ako magaling magdelegate ng tasks dahil dito. Para sa akin, kung may kailangan gawin ako na lang gagawa para hindi makaabala o hindi na magkamali. Yan lang yung dalawang rason ko. Napakasaklap na sobrang negatibo nung pangalawang rason.
Kaninang AP193, minalas ako at nabunot ko ang pangalawang slot sa oral report. Wala pa akong data. 9 days na lang bago ako humarap sa klase at sa propesor para magbigay ng economic analysis ng isang business. Cramming to the max ito dahil hindi lang ang ap193 ang inaalala ko sa ngayon.
Matapos ng aming klase, kinomfort ako ng aking mga kaibigan. Natutuwa ako dahil kilala na nila ako. Alam nila na madali akong magbreakdown kapag nastre-stress. Alam nila na nastre-stress na ako.
Hindi ko man hinihingi ang tulong nila, binigay nila ito ng kusa. Natutuwa ako kasi ibinigay na nila sa aking ang isang bagay na hindi ko kaya hingin kaagad. Kasama ito ng mga assurances na makakayanan kong gawan ng paraan ang report na ito.
Sa unang pagkakataon, napalagay ang loob ko. Hindi naman pala lahat ng tao ay maramot. HIndi naman pala lahat ay hindi mamimigay ng tulog. Mayroong mga iilan, na matatawag na tunay na kaibigan, na magbibigay ng tulong kahit hindi mo pa hinihingi.
Salamat sa inyo. Alam niyo na naman kung sino kayo.
Napatunayan niyo sa akin na hindi naman kasing sama ang mundo gaya ng iniisip ko. :)
-Lo-
Monday, August 13, 2007
i see the joke's on me
insecurity.
why do people care about their status in life?
as the song from bowling for soup goes,
The whole damn world is just as obsessed
With who‘s the best dressed and who's having sex
Who‘s got the money, who gets the hotties
Who‘s kinda cute and who‘s just a mess
And you still don’t have the right look
And you don’t have the right friends
Nothing changes but the faces, the names, and the trends
High school never ends
With who‘s the best dressed and who's having sex
Who‘s got the money, who gets the hotties
Who‘s kinda cute and who‘s just a mess
And you still don’t have the right look
And you don’t have the right friends
Nothing changes but the faces, the names, and the trends
High school never ends
Ahahaha. It sucks that highschool never ends. Oh well, i just have to deal with it.
-Lo-
Sunday, August 05, 2007
Life is restored
*Depressed mode*
I came to realize that maybe we need to let go. It's been a month since we last broke up. Nothing's change. Your parents don't even know that we're broken up. Which I think is both pathetic and cowardly. Ahaha. Yes, I am bitter and I'm going to be a bitch. Sorry.
Jet told me it took him 3years to get over me. This is from the guy who broke my heart. The guy who gave me up for someone else.
I'm thinking the number of years that I will be able to get over you will definetely be higher than Jet's number. Since it's a fact that I LOVE YOU so damn much. So, I'm thinking I have to start now.
I thought breaking up would change you. Yes, I am still the manipulative, controlling bitch you love. I just thought that maybe when you finally know what's it like to be without me, you'd do anything to make me come back.
Maybe I'm just blind. But I doubt it. YOU HAVEN'T TOLD YOUR PARENTS! And that hurts me more than you'd know. Yes I know that when they finally know, you'd be forbidden to see me. But that's the point, if you really want me, you'd be able to fight for me. I'm not saying that you have a screamfest with your parents. I don't think they're irritational. They'll hear your side and try to understand you.
If you can't fight for me as a friend, you'll never be able to fight for me as a girlfriend. Especially as your wife.
Yes I am angry. I am angry at you. I am angry at myself.
THIS HURTS. I am not me. I will never be.
I give up.
I wished I was the one who dreamt of our wedding. At least, I could have had the pleasure of seeing it in a dream. At least I could've had that.
*Depress mode*
Since my posts will definetely become more bitter and depress, I will be posting with warnings. I don't want people to get bored. Ahahaha.
My MP4 player is under repair. Damn china products. Ahahaha. Oh well. I have to go back to Divisoria on Saturday.
There are sooo much things to do. I have an interview on Tuesday. Hopefully, it completes our beat memo. We have to give our 200% on it since our teacher gave us an extension. Haaay.
I'm currently listening to Gin Blossoms. I so love emo songs. rawr.
What's new in my life? Hmmm... I'm currently texting with Jet. He finally got a cellphone. Ahahaha. I've been addicted to Desperate Housewives and Grey's Anatomy since my and my sister didn't really get to finish the season3. I'm planning on watching a sappy love movie before I go to bed and then wake up really early to research for the beat memo.
Yes, I will be another wreck.
I'm addicted to sentences that start with the word 'yes'.
I wish I was Lynette Scavo. Ahahaha.
Signing off.
-Lo-
stolen from jeni
[ ] You go tanning.
[x] You own a cell phone.
[ ] You own something from coach
[ ] You own something from chanel
[ ] You own something from juicy couture
[ ] You own something from louis vuitton
[X] You love/like going to the mall. *for a lot of reasons, although shopping is not one of them.
[X] You own an iPod/MP3 player. *currently under repair
[X] You love Starbucks.
[X ] You have been called a brat.
[ ] You have tons of shoes
[ ] You hate buying things that are on sale
[X] You have more than one house. *if living in my uncle's place count as my house. lolz.
TOTAL: 6
GOTHIC
[x] Black is one of your favorite colors.
[x] You have thought about death.
[ ] You wear chains.
[ ] You like heavy metal
[ ] You've shopped at Hot Topic.
[ ] You have worn black lipstick.
[x] Your hair was/is dark.
[x] You DISlike preps. *most of them anyway.
[ ] You're an atheist/ satanist.
[x] You have/want piercings.
TOTAL: 5
PUNK
[ ] You can skateboard.
[ ] You wear plaid.
[x] You like Converse. *but i don't have one. i want one! paging *ahem ahem*
[ ] You hate MTV.
[x] You have/had/want blue, pink, red, purple, or green hair. *i wanted pink.
[ ] You love/like skater girls/boys.
[x] You dislike pink. *now, i do.
[x] You hate preps. *most of them.
[ ] You wear/wore skateboarding shoes.
TOTAL: 4
GEEK
[x] You love the computer.
[ ] You like Star Wars.
[x] You are supposed/wore/wear to wear glasses *not anymore, 20-25 vision. :)
[x]You get straight A's.
[x] You love/like reading.
[x] You don't care what you look like *well, i'm slowly evolving
[ ] You have a curfew.
[ ] You always do your homework.
[ ] You never miss school unless your sick.
TOTAL: 5
EMO
[x] You are depressed sometimes. *all the time. ahahaha.
[x] You have black-rimmed glasses.
[ ] You like the band Thursday. *i'll consider it.
[x] You cry easily.
[x] You like emo music.
[x] You hate being called emo. *ahaha. this is sooo true.
[x] You keep/kept a journal/diary.
[x] You have written a sad poem
[x] You have/had a sad MySpace/Friendster layout.
[x] you think emo kids are hot *well, from their thoughts, yes.
TOTAL: 9
GHETTO/GANGSTA
[ ] You like rap.
[ ] you are in a gang
[ ] You wear rubberbands in your pants.
[ ] You swear a lot.
[ ] You have had a freestyle battle.
[ ] You have worn converse with the tongue flipped out.
TOTAL: 0
HARDCORE
[x] You like loud music
[ ] You love the Ninja Turtles!
[ ] You never walk anywhere.
[x] You wear slip-on shoes.
[ ] You love Norma Jean.
[ ] You wear band t-shirts. *if someone will give me one. :)
[x] People have called you a freak and meant it.
[ ] "hardcore" dance
[ ] Your hair has been dyed more than one color.
[x] You wear blue jeans.
TOTAL: 4
PREP
[ ] You love The OC
[ ] You have/want/had a tiny/medium sized dog.
[ ] Your usual outfits consist of bright colors.
[ ] You like buying shoes
[ ] You shop at American Eagle
[ ] You love/like to shop.
[ ] You love jeans.
[ ] you love paris hilton
[ ] Getting your nails done is a fun thing. *it's a hassle. but i have to go, since i don't know how to do it on my own.
[ ] you wear big sunglasses.
TOTAL: 0
ATHELETIC
[ ] You watch the Superbowl.
[ ] You own track shoes or other sports related shoes.
[ ] You collect your/others jerseys.
[ ] You have/had had a special shelf for trophies and awards.
[ ] You have posters, jerseys or plaques of famous athletes.
[ ] Your garage/shed consists of sports equipment.
[ ] You belong/belonged to a school team.
[ ] You are going/did go to a sports summer camp.
[ ] You have a specific number preferred for your jersey.
TOTAL: 0
So, I guess I'm emo. Yeech. I think Mixka will get a kick out of this. Ahahaha.
-Lo-
Wednesday, August 01, 2007
Tired
-Lo-