I sometimes think that I have to change. I don't know if it's for the better. I'm still this unsatisfied person.
It's sad to think that I have achieved a lot for myself, and yet I still want others to approve of me. I guess, it's no sense it denying that I AM A PEOPLE-PLEASER. I tend to be paranoid whenever somebody gets mad at me. I get this bad feeling that people are whispering about me. So I try my best to give what everyone wants. In the expense of my satisfaction / relief / pleasure / comfort.
I'm trying to change me. I should learn how to delegate tasks. Because when I become the leader, I do the stuff my teammates don't want to do. I'm so tired. I can only do so much.
I am a workaholic. I love being able to move and do stuff. But I also need help. I just don't like people getting angry at me if I ask them for help. :(