rock on

Saturday, June 30, 2007

Nginatngat ang tsinelas ko

Hindi ko pa nagamit ang tsinelas ko ng isang buong araw. :(

Hindi ko alam na ganito ako ka-grabe naapektuhan. Hindi ko alam na ganito ko pala pinahahalagahan ang mga paghihirap ko.

40mins din yun. 40mins na hindi nakapagpahinga, hindi nakagawa ng mga nararapat na gawing gawain. 40mins na nawala sa loob ng 5mins.

Ang babaw ko nga.

-Lo-

Thursday, June 28, 2007

Reminiscing

I was reading some blogs and reality strucked me hard.

Things really change. Even if I don't want them to.

-Lo-

Wednesday, June 27, 2007

A Happy Ending

Today, I almost broke up with my boyfriend. Ahahaha. :) I have a feeling that my relationships have a pattern. After sticking it out for 2years, I can't seem to keep my cool anymore. I get paranoid, demanding and ultimately a bitch.

The best thing for me is that, my boyfriend is a heavensent. :) He got off early from work, went outside my house and gave me a peace-offering: Heroes-season 1 DVD. I have to admit that even if it's a little corny, he knows how to capture my heart. Ahahaha.

I'm happy that he did come. Although it was really late and he'll probably get scolded by his mom if ever they knew he came here. But I'm glad he came because it made me wake up to the reality that I have someone who is willing to stick it out with me. So much that he's willing to go through so much trouble just to wake me up to see that he's the one. :)

I really hope that in the end, our story will be the happiest ending of all my happily-ever-after endings.

-Lo-

Monday, June 25, 2007

New hairdo.

New hairstyle. Change.

I'm doing the best that I can to be the perfect girlfriend. At least for the people who look at us.

I Love You.

-Lo-

Pissed off.

I can't believe it.

How dare you ask me to find this person? Why? So you could be in a relationship? Just last month we were talking about your heart getting broken. And here you are again, asking me to meet with a guy who potentially likes you.

STOP it.

I just hate it when people ask for something. It's easy to see that YOU don't like me. I hate it that I can't say no because... because I love your hmmm. WAAAAH! Atleast be nice to me.

Rawr!

-Lo-

Tuesday, June 12, 2007

From Good to Bad to Good

Today was the first day of school.

I woke up very early so that I wouldn't be late for the 7am meeting for the CAL Freshie Orientation. :) I wasn't really late. I was the second to be there. Anyways, I think I should start being early on meetings this sem. College should be a training, don't you think?

After a little problem in the FOPC, I accompanied Jeni, Aizza and Shobe while they PREROG for their MST subjects. That's when I realize that I need two MST subjects and not one! Tsk. Stupid me. I should pay more attention to my academics. And I mean really putting my attention to it.

After that, our professor for our first class didn't show up. By that time, I was really really hungry. So I bought pizza roll, which was very good by the way, and mineral water. After that we went to our second class! :) KOREYANO! :)

I learned:

Anyeonghaseyo! Jeonun Lorey imnida. :) Mannaseo Bangabseubnida! :)

Yey! :)

After that we went to the CAL freshie Orientation. That's when somebody snapped at me without a good reason. I don't get it when people do that. And that's what really sets me off. After that, I was really in a bad mood. And the thought that I was suppose to teach Jenny (we had a fight yesterday) with a little baggage wasn't really helping.

But it turns out, my session with Jenny was really fun. Minus the fact that I was really clumsy. For the NTH time. Tsk. Jenny kept laughing at me. I was always clumsy. I have wounds and I spill drinks. Tsk tsk tsk.

My Muma called me after my work. :) She invited me to an art exhibit. I was reluctant to go since I don't really fit in the crowd. But she persuaded and I really can't say no. So I went. It was fun! :) I met sooo many people. I think I garnered friends. I also got to see good art works. AND spend time with my Muma.

I just got home. I'm tired but I have to get work done. I'm praying for a miracle. Damn. I have to be a leader.

-Lo-

Sunday, June 10, 2007

Boys can really be jerks

I was researching for my KSK tips deadline today when I heard some boys shouting outside our house. As all of you know, we are currently residing in Mandaluyong. It's a townhouse owned by my uncle, who's in Canada right now.

So, I decided to check why the hell the boys were screaming. It turn's out, there were these two short and skinny boys taunting a "relatively" large boy. This large boy was really really REALLY irritated. He was really ready to punch the little guys.

Talk about being bullied.

What I hate about the whole situation was, there was this annoying girl (more of like 'yay') that said "Sige, suntukin mo!" to the large boy instead of making the two short guys just admit their mistakes and ask for forgiveness. And most of their friends started running after the two boys holding them up so that the large boy could punch him. Tsk.

Bullies. I hate them.

But come to think of it, maybe bullies bully (does this make sense?) because they're also bullied in another situation. Maybe their moms or dads are bullying them. Thus they think it's the right way to achieve power. Maybe in school, other people bully them. It's a vicious cycle.

I hope we find a way to stop creating bullies. It's not really healthy for any of us.

And if someone's getting bullied, we should be concern. We shouldn't encourage the bully to continue or the victim to take revenge. It will never end if we choose to help in that way. We should talk to them and let them handle their differences in an orderly manner. In a way, you helped them grow maturely.

The taunting has stop. Hopefully, nobody gets a black eye when they go home tonight.

-Lo-

Change

I sometimes think that I have to change. I don't know if it's for the better. I'm still this unsatisfied person.

It's sad to think that I have achieved a lot for myself, and yet I still want others to approve of me. I guess, it's no sense it denying that I AM A PEOPLE-PLEASER. I tend to be paranoid whenever somebody gets mad at me. I get this bad feeling that people are whispering about me. So I try my best to give what everyone wants. In the expense of my satisfaction / relief / pleasure / comfort.

I'm trying to change me. I should learn how to delegate tasks. Because when I become the leader, I do the stuff my teammates don't want to do. I'm so tired. I can only do so much.

I am a workaholic. I love being able to move and do stuff. But I also need help. I just don't like people getting angry at me if I ask them for help. :(

I need to change.

-Lo-

Wednesday, June 06, 2007

Pandora's Box

The tongue is sharper than any double-edged sword. Tsk.

I know that you love my friend. I just want to make sure that she won't be hurt. I have loved her for more than a year. I saw her when she was at her highest and lowest. I know how she cries, how she laughs, how she worries, how she turns on her shield and pretend it doesn't affect her. I even know how she lies.

I've seen the two of you together. You make each other laugh. It's not everyday that someone like you makes her laugh so I know that you are special. But do remember this, she's strong, she's tough, she's ready for any battle that comes her way but when it comes to the heart...

She's fragile.

Please be careful. I don't want to see her cry anymore.

-Lo-

Friday, June 01, 2007

encouragement

It's official. May sakit ako.

Hinawaan ako ni JH (estudyante ni Nelson) ng sipon noong Miyerkules. Kinaya ko pa rin ang mga naka-schedule kong gawain kahapon. Ngayon, hindi ako mapakali sa daming deadlines na kinakailangang tapusin kung kaya't hindi na ako nakapagpahinga.

Nasa computer shop ako ngayon dahil nawawalan na naman ng dialtone ang aming telepono. May meeting ako sa ym. May tutor ako kinabukasan ng 1-3pm. May 3 kailangang ipasa sa org. Pagod na yata ako.

Ahaha. Parang nagrereklamo ako. Pero hindi. Ano nga ba itong ginagawa ko? Uhm, reminder. Baka kasi makalimutan ko na naman. Gaya noong nakalimutan ko na gusto ko pa lang gumalaw.

-Lo-